Kody Brown let his walls down during the latest episode of Sister Wives and shared the truth about when he lost his virginity.
“You want to know the craziest thing?” Kody, 55, asked viewers during the Sunday, January 5, episode of the TLC series. “I had a lover in college, and it was a little tryst.”
The reality star confessed he was “a naughty boy based on my faith” because of his dalliance in school. “I had a relationship in college where I lost my virginity,” he shared. “It was devastating to me. It was heartbreaking.”
Kody explained that since “purity” was “everything” in his childhood church, having sex out of wedlock messed with him. “It’s like you’re working your way back for it,” he told the cameras, reiterating, “It is devastating.”
Kody — who went on to father 15 children with his four wives — revealed that “nobody knew” about his college hookup except for first wife Meri Brown and fourth wife Robyn Brown.
“It was really because I don’t believe I ever got intimate enough with [my other wives] Christine [Brown] and Janelle [Brown] to tell them,” he continued, noting that Robyn, 46, learned about his past within the “first month we knew each other.”
Kody said his ability to tell Robyn such an intimate detail about his life was because he “felt safe” with her from the start.
“I’m not safe with them and they’re not safe with me,” he said of Janelle, 55, and Christine, 52.
Kody’s confession was prompted by a conversation he had with Robyn during the episode about whether he ever loved his first three wives completely. (Christine and Kody split in November 2021. Janelle announced her separation in December 2022 and Meri, 53, confirmed their breakup in January 2023.)
“You were in love when you married them and, like, when you were together, right, like, in the beginning?” Robyn asked her husband.
He grimaced before answering his spouse, saying, “Don’t make me compare, please.” Kody explained that he “didn’t know” what it was like to “really have deep divine love” until Robyn came into his life.
“I’m a flip-flopping fool when it comes to those ex-wives,” Kody said during a confessional, claiming, “All of us are rewriting the past. I mean, Meri’s rewriting it like crazy. I’m rewriting I’m sure because yes, I probably loved them. I had Robyn convinced I was in love with them.”
Kody added that he must have “sold” Robyn on the idea that his family was “something special” because once it fell apart it’s been “messing with her.”
When he later told Robyn that he needs her to “let that go” and “not hold it against” him that he was no longer in love with his exes. He alleged that he “agreed” with Christine, Janelle and Meri that their respective relationships had run their course.
“I’m not trying to be cruel to Robyn. And yet, it’s just heartbreaking to her when the reality finally hits right in front of her,” Kody concluded.
Sister Wives airs on TLC Sundays at 10 p.m. ET.